Part of my family member - meow meow

This one of my lovely pet call meow meow..

You know what is his (is a male) farvorite food or not?

I tell you lah..

1st..

He love durian..

he enjoy eat durian with us even sit together with among my family.

2nd..

He love cheesee..

when I bought cheesecake..he also want a small slice for himself.

3rd..

He love nasi lemak punya ikan bilis even got sambal..

4th..

He love to play with his friend-dinosaur, a soft toys..

what kind of soft toys..

as below picture..

he love even want to hug the toy and sleep..

but when he get angry then bully the dinosaur..

he try to kiss his friend

again, he want to kiss his friend...

Basketball at night

This was taken when I drop by Mobile field and saw a group of people playing basketball at night..almost midnight..

however, he also at there.. suppose I should run away from him..but, I'm happy for I can see him..

well, herewith some of the sport man making they body tired and sweat at night for their hobbies - basketball..

Face Mask

Recently, I quite busy in many fields..especially, self and work.. can say so not regular actively in serving the Lord. And I began have this habit in putting mask on my face.

My reason to post here not to tell you how terrible I am although many of time..I quite terrible..

but is to remind myself in try to not putting this mask in all place and situation.

Although this mask help me to cover my scar, make me look strong, comfort people around me and even so, many thought I already ok by let go of you including you also think like that..

but, I should thrown away this mask and let it heal by time. Right?? but it is very hard for me..

I can't help but to tell you, I'm fine.

I will do what I suppose to do and what I can do.

And I give it unto You

Every limitation we have can be seen as an invitation from God to do for us what we cannot do for ourselves. When we surrender, we don't just give up or play dead or wait for God to fix us. Instead, we become active participants with God in making a new path of hope toward healing. We drop our guard and give up our solitary and isolated to heal. We sincerely and humbly reach out to others who can help us restore our lives to spiritual vitality. Surrender is not passivity, nor is it resignation. Its motion requires an active and conscious turning toward God wherein we reflect our willingness to submit to His power by living out our new found truth and sharing it with others.
*from book "what have you got to lose?"

Surrender

Is a big word, you know??

my 1st stage is like this,

"What can I surrender to? "

"I have nothing and nothing I have to surrender."

Then, the next stage,

"I can't surrender it to you, Lord."

"It just too precious and too important to me."

=)

well, learn to smile a bit

Last time, I'm very afraid to sing "all to Jesus, I surrender.."

Do you know why??

"I find it very very hard and I'm not willing

by repeat saying, I rather lose all things but not this.

this is too important to me."

What I trying to say is,

Surrender it may not be a lose.

but the truth is

Lose the Burden of Control...Gain the Freedom of Surrender

Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said,

"If anyone would come after me,

he must deny himself and take up

his cross amd follow me.

For whoever wants to save his life will lose it,

but whoever loses his life for me and

for the gospel will save it."

~Mark 8 :34-35~

It's still a happy things..

I have just read a book call "WHAT HAVE YOU GOT TO LOSE?"

and I get this book from Book Fest.

This book..not making me emo..

but, it's set up many challenge to me.

And below is some of my fields being challenge

Challenge 1# Becoming a Christian does not mean everything will immediately change. Real Life residue is present that must be processed out of our lives. And some realities like loss, temptation, and betrayal cause us to be anything but HAPPY.

I feel very touch for this author has been very strict and honest in bringing this call Life in a Christian. And being ABLE to experience all this loss and temptations, doesn't mean to pull me down, but is a process of being transform.

Recently, I have spend many time to look back my life (since brother Jen Ruw's leaving). And I have many great teacher in my life in sharing me all about life. One thing he shared to me is

"to know what is Life 1st we must know what is Death?"

And actually, I did always pray for change to more like Christ or to have more love and patient like Christ did or purify my heart to be like Christ so that I can see Your will..

I did so many of this kind of prayers in previous years even up right now.

And now..time to change..then, I found out it is so difficult, unwilling and too big for me..

it is a big challenge.

Challenge 2# Must accept to be perfect must allow God work in me and I can't do it alone although I "think" I can.

If can, open your bible and read John 8 : 32

Yes, certainly the Truth will set me free. But, somehow, I miss the point if I skip John 8 : 31

And this has challenge me is.. the Living Out Truth.. this says no selfish desires and requires an authentic life lived with others and before the Lord. The truth transforms us, but I have to COOPERATE during the process in order to look like Christ who does the transforming.

this thought will drive me crazy if I get this book in 4 or 5months ago..

But, to be fair to tell, I'm more willing to see the glory of God that God allow work through me.

May not be as big as grand and as great that in my imagination (because whatever happen also seem very big and serious,actually is me worry too much), but is just good enough for me to see the glory of God.

And above matter, I can't do it alone nor others can do to me, but God alone.

Because only He is ABLE.

I do able to see His glory in viewing through my life IF only I able to keep John 8:31.

At the end, when I look back, it's still a happy things for me to have you and Jesus in my life. =)

Quite Time : Matthew 19 :16-30

This is my quiet time before I went to youth on Saturday.

Matthew 19 : 16-30

The Rich Young Man

¹⁶Now a man came up to Jesus and asked, "Teacher, what good thing must I do to get eternal life?"

¹⁷"Why do you ask me about what is good?" Jesus replied. "There is only One who is good. If you want to enter life, obey the commandments."

¹⁸"Which ones?" the man inquired.

Jesus replied, " 'Do not murder, do not commit adultery, do not steal, do not give false testimony, ¹⁹honor your father and mother, and 'love your neighbor as yourself."

²⁰"All these I have kept," the young man said. "What do I still lack?"

²¹Jesus answered, "If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."

²²When the young man heard this, he went away sad, because he had great wealth.

²³Then Jesus said to his disciples, "I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. ²⁴Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God."

²⁵When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished and asked, "Who then can be saved?"

²⁶Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."

²⁷Peter answered him, "We have left everything to follow you! What then will there be for us?"

²⁸Jesus said to them, "I tell you the truth, at the renewal of all things, when the Son of Man sits on his glorious throne, you who have followed me will also sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. ²⁹And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life. ³⁰But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.

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What strike me the most

1st # in verse 16 & verse 21

the rich young man asked how to be good, but how come Jesus answered him by how to be perfect??

Then, to read on, Jesus not only want us to be good; but to be perfect in God's kingdom.

2nd # in verse 24 & verse 26

Jesus tell us that "it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God." then my question is..huh???like how??to make a large needle so that the camel can go through it??

No..I'm wrong..

then, to read on..Jesus answered is "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."

Actually, what we never thought of or what we keep thinking impossible, and God is able to make it possible by His mighty power just by believe.

Truly, I hope what it seem impossible for me, but God able to make a miracle in my life just at his right time.

Wedding : Wai Loon & Esther Liew

Mr.&Mrs.Yong

This is their wedding

so sweet, right?

Me & Esther

Me & Yvonne Yong

All this is my Sister in Christ

(Hannah, Kimberly, Myself, Annie and Hui Xin)

Group Jordan

10/9/2010..is not a day of Hari Raya..for myself, I don't have any of Raya feel also.

Because I only full with wedding feeling for

my brother and sister in Christ - Wai Loon & Esther Liew.

I'm happy for them from the bottom of my heart.

^^

Wedding..

call to be husband and wife..

is really not easy..

I know I'm not ready for it yet..

same go to you..

So..

If both of us is ready to enter this serious relationship

call to be husband and wife..

I hope is you..

Whatever it may be, the focus for me now is..

focus in God 1st..

right??

So, I will set aside this matter unto God.

Let God watch after you and me bah

although we are far from each other day by day..