Movie Day with Amy

2 Hours ago, I was with my best friend - Amy watching a movie call Charlie St Cloud.

I think, I saw you in Midvalley. Simply because I saw someone look really look like you sitting in cos mart.

However, me and amy went for food court eat ikan bakar. Cheap and nice one. ^^

Then, we enjoy Baskin Robbin ice-cream for today is Pink Day.

Then, we went on for movie that start at 9pm.

By the way, I was eager to watch this movie simple I get attracted from the poster and the story for the movie. It is really a good show for Life living.

In the movie, is not only got leng zai, but with many word of wisdom has revealed. There were few word did draw my attention.

"You feel hurt because you are alive.",

"Why you?",

"What have you done with your gift and your 2nd chance?"

This movie is to tell and challenge those who are still taking breath and living at this moment, Live a full life.

You know, I tot I know life when I just seem to know good things, in comfort, under safe protect, and doing what others doing as well..like go school, work and many..

But, God is using things/matter/people to remind me of what is Life about?

If there's a necessary to let you understand, God may teach you the lesson through different way.

And God remind me Life through hurt and rejection.

People may reject you, friend may not accept you, your most love one may hurt you..

Izzit what Life about??

I'm thankful for I'm living under God's grace day by day..

But, what have I done with my life??

Until one day I have make my decision to live, or else, I'm just wasting my life.

A life for living..

Herewith the Charlie St.Cloud picture that I love very much.

Who am I to have all this, Lord pls take all this away from me

Sound similar???

Yes, I have mention this in Facebook when I was really in deep trouble in mind and heart. And my mind and my heart was sicked at that moment.

For myself, whatever I have gone is a kind of blessing for me.

The sweet one,

The memorable one,

The sorrow one,

The hard one,

The helpless one,

The joyous one,

The unwilling one,

The hopeless one,

The crazy one,

The smile..yes..

The smile I have when I look at you..

all this is blessing for me that money cannot buy.. =)

What is blessing for you?? for me is something I undeserved to have it but, someone practice His kindness and make me have it-blessing.

But, I also remember the story of "Jewel Pearl Necklace" story..

Do you familiar with this story??

And this remind me of Jesus has ask 3 times for His disciples - Peter "Do you love me more than this?"

Do you know this chapter in the Bible??

For me, what holding me on what encourage me on is all love about. As my best sister share with me, there are many type of love, family's love, friend's love, husband and wife, sisterly's love, brotherly's love and many more...all this is the way we love..

To be honest, for me is only have 2 type of love - to love or not to love..

I don't know you were reading my blog all this while. But, I hope this will be your last passage and hope you will not visit my blog anymore. At least, I have a place to expose what I unwilling to let you see. Please respect me as I will do the very same to you. =)

Focus

Sometimes, I hope I have received a sms after a tiring of working day;

Sometimes, I hope to see you appear at my house and jump out and shock me with surprise;

Sometimes, I really hope to have chance to pray with you again;

And sometimes, I do hope we can never lost the value in each other.

You know why I say all this?? I has been independent for 6months. I get back my focus in God as the time pass by.. and it has pass by very fast. Because it has been half year already.

Through many "sometimes" as I view as above, I have lost my focus in God.

God want my focus in everything I do, I have, I experience and even I give. All is relate with Him.

To give thanks, to praise Him, to worship Him, to love Him and most important is to obey Him.

But, sad to say, many of us just easily get distracted same go to me. What I hope for, What I looking forward and what I want it only will drive my focus away from God..

Just like a baby can just easily get distracted by something look beautiful.. Baby..who you can think of?? (hmm..must be...) now..you just lose focus in what I just mention.. I just said juat like a baby and I didn't mention name..somehow, we just easily have the name fly over in our mind.

However, to learn to stay focus, I discover that I have to learn to obey my Master in order to focus in doing what I suppose to do for God, for my family, for Church, for other people and for my work.

When time to study, stay focus in study and get lost from Facebook;

When time to fellowship , stay focus in building up one another with great fellowship and stop worry for the preparation;

When time to worship, just stay focus in God and stop looking around observe what people do.

We can easy get distracted from a little minor sound and action, but, we can never stay focus in Obey what pleased the Lord.

I have a problem in stay focus in obey God, do you have this kind of problem also??

I hope we can learn to overcome this by sapu away this person call satan for he like to set a block or distract us to stay focus in God.

Let's pray hard for it.

I'm just a kids =)

You know, only in this box, allow me to express what is in my mind and something that I don't know how to share with you face to face.

As you read on, you will find out..I'm a negative thinking person. I am a negative thiking person as many action proved I am. Therefore, I have get a book as my Birthday present - "I kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris to gain more acknowledge in the Lord and add on my value in Christ through book reading.

In chapter 2, it mention like below:

I love love. But I've come to realize that I don't really know about it. Oh, I can tell you all about the warm, fuzzy side of love. I can throw myself into romance with all the passion of Romeo, but in God's school of true love, I'm afraid I'm still in kindergarten.

Actually, this book writter encourage we all stay in single until we graduate from God's school of true love then only get into a courtship to have our life partner as God give to us.

As some of you know me well, you will know why I so eager to get into a relationship with him. I really love him and I mean it. But, refer to above context, actually, I'm just a kids who don't know how to love my love ones in the way God want us to love.

Not that I always want to bring up relationship issue..and you may bored with my topic
but, for me this is what matter the most..
at least now..

My present for my 23th

My most love flovour : strawberry cheesecake

Thank for Amy Pooi, Rou Sang, Dorcas, Henri and Nicholas Kim

My most love flovour : Green Tea Red Bean Cake

Home-Made by my sister Sin Mei

Thank you so much for above mention name and

many more more name that wishes me in

facebook

church

sms

as well..

also..want to thank you my Heavenly Father and my Best Friend - Jesus,

for bless me many blessings..

who make this day special for me..

23th Birth Day

1 Peter 4

Living for God

¹Therefore, since Christ suffered in his body, arm yourselves also with the same attitude, because he who has suffered in his body is done with sin. ²As a result, he does not live the rest of his earthly life for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God. ³For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do—living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. ⁴They think it strange that you do not plunge with them into the same flood of dissipation, and they heap abuse on you. ⁵But they will have to give account to him who is ready to judge the living and the dead. ⁶For this is the reason the gospel was preached even to those who are now dead, so that they might be judged according to men in regard to the body, but live according to God in regard to the spirit.

⁷The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. ⁸Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. ⁹Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. ¹⁰Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. ¹¹If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

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Today..should call today is my most special day of the year.. However, I just hope no any celebration for me this year, and I really not in celebrate mood to have fun or to have great dinner..but, pls as normal as another normal saturday.. at least, it would not as memorable as last year.. because of this memorable memory make me sick for today.. If memorable memory only make you sad when you look back, I hope.. i will just have another normal day in this special day of the year.

But, yesterday night..I have read a passege before I slept-1 Peter 4

Then, somehow.. I try to link this topic for my birthday.. Guess what?? this is the topic I get for myself..No matter is birthday or moody day, I should use my life and live for God- the will of God..

Who is the one worth enough for you to plan and do the preparation?? I guess..only because you love the person more than yourself only will take this step..

I'm thankful for last year, how you prepared to make this 1st and last celebration between you and me.. Thank you..

And I do, thank God for today, who prepare all things for me in bringing glory unto Him even a sinner like me.. May Your will be done in me..

Natural Colour After Rain - Rainbow

This taken when I was about leaving from Tesco Ampang..
Well, when I saw this, stilll raining but the colour of the Rainbow just get my attention as many poeple only carry umbrella and didn't realize about they above their head there is a beatiful rainbow.

You know..I love rainbow..I love the beauty of the nature and the colour. ^^
Somehow, rainbow is like a hope after a heavy raining day..
it also a promise of hope in Noah's day..
I do love to see rainbow but not often can witness this beauty of nature.

You know..once you appear like a rainbow..get my full attention and you just simply amazed me by your cheerful character..
However, you also appear like a rainbow..you only love in short while.. and then, disappear..
I really miss you as we getting far from each other by time..

Also through time, I begin learn to smile.. whatever it come to me but response by smile..
and sincerely smile for people around me to tell you that, "I'm fine."
And this smile become my mask in cover my scar..

Rainbow is just too beautiful for me..and same go to you..
I only can remain standing far and witness the beauty of rainbow..
if get near, I afraid I can't see it..and same go to you..
I only can remain standing far from you..by looking at you, I find joy in seeing you are heppy out there without me..I shall happy for you.. God make you shine bightly out there..
I shall happy for you.. for God make you as my rainbow in my life for that short while..
It is good enough..it is really good enough for me to have such a blessed beauty appear in my life even for that short moment only..