True Friend

I hope...I can be your true friend...

How can I overcome it??

I just so afraid...i will fall back...

and I really a kind of girl that lack of self-control, lack of discipline and lack of wisdom..

I'm so scare...

How can I overcome it???

Someone who worth for me

This is the Sister that I meet in my life that always care others beyond herself, love others beyond herself and even to give beyond what she can. And always know my heart so well.

I sincerely touch by your care and love for me. Being so good to me even when I scold you and argue with you and ignore your kindness for me. I'm sorry for all this.

But, today I really worry you. I wanted so much to help you and I don't know how to comfort you, how to give you what is suitable for you, because I'm so limited with my strength. The only things I can do for you is always pray for you.

I always believe God's care is far more betterr than mine. Therefore, whatever it come into your life that push you at the corner or being annoying with all the unhappy things, pls always remember God is there for you. Please be strong, sister.

I strongly believe that God is preparing something very precious and valuable for you. Just don't give up and give in. Whenever you need me, just tell me and I'll be there for you. And please always remember, you are not alone.

So, I hope one day you will able to see whatever you have give , whatever you preservere on, and your tears, God see it and it won't go vain. Just remember, God know everything about you.

Herewith some of the moment we have been through together. I pray and I hope we will always be together to love, to care and to support one another in truth and in love.

You know, I'm happy to have you around when I don't know how to talk to anyone.

In camp transformation MegaPaw Night

You always what I love even my favor ice-cream..

If you think you are still in sickness, pls let God heal you and fix you to become who you really mean for God.

=)

A life that is worth living

I have been very long didn't have any update here. However, this has been a long journey for me..i think..hahahaha..

You know, in youth camp and family camp also talking about LOVE..a love from God.. We have been talking so much about God's Love for us - a sinner.
LOVE....is my life...LOVE is the most important matter for me..I'm serious for it. But, throughout this long period of time, I begin to understand what is Love about.
I have this few things to share at here about Love.

Is not only what is Love about , but much more valuable if I can understand Why we Love and How we Love.

If ever the main ingredient for a pot of curry chicken is curry powder and chicken meat, then, the main ingredient for a Relationship is always honest, always trust and always accept.

Use things to love people, NOT use people to love things.

A life is only worth living if I know how to Love in a right way.

Sincerely I have make many prayer for each of you. I'm very thankful and grateful for God able to bring me to this level which is I able to experience His grace, His mercy and His love for a sinner - me.

This verse always come into my mind..
Romans 8:28 - And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

And I will keep praying for God to review His will for me in His beautiful timing.

And I'm very happy to have you who reading my blog now to be with me throughout this time.
Thank you for many care and love and little protection for me.
Thank you =)

A New Journey

I'm very....comfortable now..

for I have experience release..

I'm very thankful for many

encouragements,

prayers,

advices,

loves,

patience,

protects, and

acceptations to me.

Thank you.

learn to smile..from the bottom of my heart..

Beside talk to God, this is the 2nd place and the only place when I want to talk about myself or my life, just only will be me alone. Sometime, I do really enjoy being alone and not disturb by any people.

As time passby, I'm get to know a lot of stuffs that all this while has hide behind me. And all this stuffs make me very sad and feel 委屈.. yes, it is very 委屈.. do you know i'm a person who cannot stand with 委屈? i will just can't stop crying for it..

I don't know what to do for all this, as all this cannot be change because it become a fact.
I also don't know why I never ever doubting or question about your love.. and this is fact. I didn't doubt, you know? surely, you know about it..that's why its lead you to behave like that.

By the way, after many long cried in prayed, I promise, I will learn to smile..a sincere one, from the bottom of my heart. =)

I know you are moving in and out of my life

There is a time for everything.. hahaha..just simply copy from don't know who.

But I heard this for many time even in the bible Ecclesiastes also did mention about it.

However, I got to know there are many people care about me.

And they did care about my life

all thisthis while only by reading from here. To be honest, if you do

sincere care about me, I will know by your action.

By the way, this will be my last post and I realize here is no longer a

place I can express out what's about me and people in my life.

And you have be in and out of my life, but, I afraid, now I want to lock

my door and no one else will come and disturb me as you guys think

this is the best way for me to recover.

I'm ashame to tell that, I don't have confidence in continue what am I

doing. And whatever I do, all just seems wrong for you..even now..

You can have a happy life, but I might not be happy in life that bring

so much hurt and tears for me. Somehow, i have this feeling,

I jealous jen ruw who can at home so early..and I begin to miss

this place call Heaven. no sorrow, no tears, no pain, no suffering...

Life is for living. but, I have another question..

Life is living for what??

prepare for another new life?? get the full training??

living it with the fullness of life?? if is to get hurt and reject again..

I can accept get hurt from anybody else, but not from you and you

and you...who do you think i mention for this "you"???If you do care

for me, pls come and look for me..I'm not your ulat in your stomach,

if you don't show it to me, how can I know??

and why you guys expect me to know "you are care for me?"

how to make a trust in this statement??

teach me if you know..

I will just stop right here. no more posting in this An Ordinary Life.