原来....

原来我是

很痛恨那些玩弄感情的男人

很讨厌那些把别人的关心当玩笑来娱乐开玩笑

很痛恨欺骗我

很痛恨被背叛

很痛恨人愚弄我

我很顶不顺...因为这一切只会令我想起过去...

:'(

Laziness

Laziness...ruin my day with all kinds of excuse
Laziness...kill me from being unproductive

Laziness...just make doing things that I hope to do..wish is lazy but nothing..

haih...
time to move on and run with perseverance and love.

Issue of Life : Financial

There always a life issue in each of us.

However, in my young age, i think my bigger cause to my mum is lack of wisdom and self-control in manage money.

I feel so much guilty for my mum to make her worry and stress over myself while I already in the ages should be independence to handle about life. But, I fail it.

Financial problem was and is the bigger problem in my house. I was never good in manage money. I was never in spending wise in money or even worst, time.

haih...

so much disappointment and struggle and heart break over in house.

And I pray that I will change from it so that I can bring a happy and comfortable life for my family and people around me. And I want to learn this up so that in future I will able to handle this kind of issue.

Even More Fruiful

It is finish...

Yessss..... It has been a long run marathon even since after Marcus's wedding until now.

Time is flying with high speed. The most heavy part now has come to and end.

From every single moment that i do for the life that i have, I do it with what i can.
It was a long process to set up and put up the deco for survivor;

It was a restless night after survivor and join for devotional night;

It was a long duty night to prepare for outreach night until it finish with clean up;

It was a headache day and night to work in a good company with bad management;

It was a restless night in running many round to buy stuffs for family camp even during Deepavali Holiday;

It was another restless night in helping youth for Carnival and doing advance preparation for family camp;

It was a rushing day to know not enough space to transport stuffs to camp while still need to fetch people from one point to another point;

It was a tiring journey to travel far from deep forest to small town and small town back to deep forest just to buy enough food for all campers;

It was a sleepless night for so much of last minute changing things in camp;

It was a tiring night from morning until supper also need to prepare food in a DIY open kitchen;

It was a long journey to travel back with exhausted body for about 4-5hours;

It was a fruitful moment for every step I lay down with a mark of love for the Church members;

It was my privilege to do things that able to examine myself what I need to improve with;

It was my privilege in giving what I received from the Lord that in benefit back Lord's people;
It was my privilege to have what I don't deserve in Life- Jesus Christ.

For Jesus is the only reason for me to do and not to do. Therefore, I'm thankful for all the support and love and care and guidance and encouragement and gentle reminder from each of you throughout the time to allow me to grow.

In order for me to tell what it is in my life, I only can tell you, I have gone through from And Yet I live to Even More Fruitful with much love and joy.

I do pray, may all this be pleasing unto the Lord.