Sunday, July 31, 2011

The Gift



Ephesians 2:8-9
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast.

This is today worship theme that lead by brother Ernest. I felt so encouraged and feel touching when I heard few brothers that share in worship with their Spirit in pointing me to God. With those sincere and mature sharing, make my tears drop silently.

Sometime, I do not prepare for worship in Spirit and in truth with some funny kinds of excuses I can think off. I also easy to fail. However, I do looking forward for every time being serious in worship and in leading a chairing session. Because I find it a time for refreshing my soul and my direction in life, and I do want to worship the Lord with my heart, my soul and my love for Him.
It is because of Christ, I'm here to worship God.

A gift, that describe is only freely give by someone who thought of you;
A gift, that make you special for someone;
A gift, that is free for you but never for the one that give the gift;
A gift, that talk about your choice for someone or some occasion;
A gift, that value count and mean for you;
A gift, that is no season nor a reason for gift if we love that person;
A gift, that usually we don't deserve it.

But God has a gift for me, He send His Son to died for me and save me from sin and give me this call eternal life. The problem is, I don't deserve it. Who am I to get this gift from God?? A sinner like me??? But, it is just that simple, because He love me, and now this gift have given unto me.

However, Steven Yam did mention something that inspired me, which is the timing of gift.

Romans 5:6-8
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

God's timing always right. A time for everything.(Ecclesiastes 3:1)
And God's purpose always just come on time. Never early nor late.
Same goes to God's gift.

And this remind me of a song,
"in His time, in His time, He make all things beautiful in His time."


And we are the reason, that my Father in Heaven has prepare His greatest gift for me, His son-Lord Jesus Christ. I'm not sure how much it touched you, but, I do.


I'm grateful for I get to received this gift from God and knowing how great is Your love for me in sustain me this ordinary people in this temporary world I'm in.


I couldn't stand and worship the Lord as like brothers, but, with my heart, I worship you with what I have and what I don't have, silently.
Thank you, Lord.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I know You're there

If all I had was one last breath
I'd spend it just to sing Your praise
Just to say Your name
If all I had was one last prayer
I'd pray it 'cause I know You're always listening
If I could live a thousand lives, bind the hands of time
I would spend every moment by Your side

'cause I, I know You're there, I know You see me
You're the air I breathe
You are the ground beneath me
I know You're there, I know You hear me
I can find You anywhere

If all I had was one more song to sing
I would raise my voice to make the heavens ring
If all I had was one last chance, I'd take it
I would stake it all on You

If I could raise up high and catch a glimpse of every eye
I would make them believe
What I feel inside

If I could live a thousand lives and bind the hands of time
If I could rise up high and catch a glimpse of every eye

I know You're there
I know You're there
I know You're there, You're there


the invisible one, but I know You are there.
You are not that far, because I know you living in my heart.
My Master, My Lord and My Savior.


Tuesday, July 26, 2011

你们是否丧失了最基本的人性?你们是这样对待你身边的人吗?
给你们的下一代知道的话,简直丢面死了..还值得令人尊重吗?
拜托...(叹气)

简直火都来...

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

不愿意的时候

最近,因为好友的不愉快,使得我在交谈当中也使得我领悟到,
不是我不知道什么是对的事。

不管,我讨厌的人对我做了什么,那管家人朋友如何劝我忘记过去,
我忘不了,我放不下,我原谅不到,更不需要说接受成为友人.
对我所作的一切,所有的背叛,欺骗,愚弄,委屈,不甘愿。。
无法原谅。。也不应该得到原谅。。

只是,只要我是神的儿女,我一天是基督徒,就得爱。
神,要我爱我的友人,也要爱我的敌人。
这不是我可以选择的决定,而是神给的吩咐.
我就只有一个敌人,恶魔与罪行。

在神的国度,没有永远的敌人。
终有一天,我会原谅,
终有一天,我会接受。

神要得不是只会光说而不行动证明的我。
所以,我极不管他们,也不看其他的,只专注看着神而往前走去。
这使得我在不愿意的时候学会的self-control, concentrate, discipline and
how to please the Lord especially in struggle and trials....
也在侍奉的路途当中获益不浅... =)

所以,为我的好友感到无助,
我只可以为她祷告,不再计较,不再倔强,
为永恒的价值做出神要她学会的事。
会是一堂很要命也很艰难的一课,不过,
只要学会了,这堂课就不再那么难了。



Thursday, July 14, 2011

Q & A session

We always good in putting aside what we don't like to look at and will not turn into it.
but, it is because i choose not to see you, then i can focus my mind in the Lord again and again.
Am i doing the right thing??


I have ask this in 30 mins ago, but I have the answer in just a short update from fb.

Panic make you sink into deep water of worries..
so, by looking at Jesus, then you can walk on water again..


How i judge my decision is right or wrong? I don't know with what that make me right nor wrong. But, I only know, I found peace, when I just focus my eyes, my mindset and my intention of love unto Jesus. I found peace. His the one that allow me walk on water just like He do with just one request. Looking at Him and follow Him.

I need not to worry what if in 2years time, i still love the guys as i did in 2 years back.. or what if i get hurt from the same scar over and over again..

I have the answer, I need not to worry anymore for I found peace in give my full view to Christ and let Him led.

Let me give thanks with my heart.
Let me worship you with my all.

Thank you, Lord, for your comfort for me.


Sunday, July 10, 2011

An Assignment....

Get an individual assignment from SDC Class with title
"Have you ever change the way you think after you have become a Christian?"

And Steven has quoted this before the class end.
The best way to grow is to look back your life.

Well, I don't dare to say I didn't change.
Indeed, I'm different from 10 years back or 5 years back.
How much do I really change???
To be honest, I don't know how to measure it.
Except one thing, I know, is through our picture then we know, how much we're changed.
But, it only outlook appearance.


I still in discovering how much I have change my thinking ever since I truly be a Christian.

Let me have a checklist then only I know, whether I'm changing to good or worst than before..


Monday, July 4, 2011

That's all I ask for now..

All I need is only stay focus..

do not look at left or right.

but only look up to God.

Just stay focus in God.

And let's not be distraction for one another that working hard for the Lord.

That all I ask for now..

Friday, July 1, 2011

熟悉的味道

我之前用的洗发水用完了.
到今天才有时间购买我的日常用品.
之前我都没有去搜索这个我怀念的味道.

今天,我再次闻到这个我很喜欢的味道,我也很怀念的味道.
每次你在身边,每次你的拥抱,有着你熟悉的味道..
真的很舒服,我真的很怀念..这个味道...

写到这里,我真的很傻...

是时候用这个味道来提醒我,
已变了,也消失了...

它只是一个...回忆的味道...

该是睡觉的时候了,不过casting crowns的I Know You're There真的很动听.
你也听听吧....