Listening...If I die young..

Today is D-Day...Currently helping mum cook lunch then later go church..
Life is great if only you know who is the One holding your breath, your life...

While the song is playing..if I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses, sink me in the river at dawn, send me away with the words of a love song....

Will you feel proud of your life when you die??? for now, I will feel sad if I die young..for I have so much more not yet done..

How sad it is if I die in young age like now???
No, I don't want die in young age...I don't want make my closer one to cry and my family to suffer in losing me..

If God allow me to live until I get married and I want to have children and I want to raise my children and let them know this God who I have in my life..I want my children to be someone that God feel proud of too..as I always feel very proud of what I have from God and I do very proud of I have Jesus in my life and non others can experience what I have with Him..

with no regret to live a good life to the One I proud of.

just a silly tot to share here..alright, need to continue helping mum cooking..today she cook me homemade pan mee for me ^^ must be very nice and tasty...yummy~~

Getting Worst...=.=

Today..haih.. I overslept again...
Monday I reach office just on time..
Tuesday I late 5mins..
and today Wednesday... I overslept..haih...

I really feel tired for this few week..like non-stop booming that kind..
2nd week of Oct - The Apprentice
3rd week of Oct - Food Hunting
4th week of Oct - AR Finale
1st week of Nov - Family Camp..din really get rest in this camp
2nd week of Nov - Make Over
3rd week of Nov - Carnival
4th week of Nov - D-Day
1st week of Dec - Last Group Meeting with Jordan Sweet Day
2nd week of Dec - Award Night

wow..so fast reach to the end already. I really busy for many things..ended up, I just not enough time for my sleep, my time and even over spent for my money.

No matter how tired I am or how worst I am..
whenever I feel tired, I encourage myself by shout this out " I can do all things through Him who give me strength."
whenever I feel so lost and discouarge, I understand this wholelly "Although I always lost control, but I know, God is in control in my life."

alright, time to work with my best.

Let's pray for a fruitful day =)

You think too much...

No matter how I trying to improve myself, it also can't change your impression for me, a girl that always think too much..I really hate this just because I DID NOT think too much whether you love me or not, or love me still betray me...I NEVER EVER THINK THAT MUCH IT WILL HAPPEN TO ME..and now you saying you think too much...

Great..I admit, I'm a girl that always think too much..but, how come I never doubt on your love to me???Stupid..foolish...fan shu...that's me...

Petra Carnival 2010

I feel like want to write something here..and this is the place i able to write whatever i want to...

Today... is Petra annual Carnival Day.. Throughout the week was so much, work, preparation, headed planning, lack of time for sleep, for family,and even a proper dinner..

However, again I give thanks that for today Carnival..is worth..this is what I feel.. There are so many newcomers came to visit our church.

And I really think that my group Jordan really did a wonderful job in each of the corner field they have.. I'm so comfort by people willing to help and willing to ask me and willing to offer me with many good and useful idea as well..Truly this is a great comfort and encouragement for me.
And my team make me proud for each of them.

Besides this, I still remember last year Petra Carnival, I have a troubled in arrange all my stuffs from church back to my house. I have almost 17 boxes and many bages to carry. At the end, I still need to fetched church member home.. And that time I still have you with me to help me in arrange and taking care of my stuffs.. My mum told me that, he was taking all the boxes and stuffs just by his own from car to left then to 5th left door and go into my house. As some of you know, I stay in a condominium house which is quite troublesome if you got so many stuffs to carry in and out.. But, you did it for me, last year..
So..this year I was alone...to carry, to pack and to unload all stuffs. I have spent 4 rounds in up and down from pick up area and go into my house by lock and unlock my door. Then, I realize I forgot to take my laptop with my phone in my laptop beg.."Oh No!"
Then, I go back to church and take back my laptop..

this is what I get to experience when the time without your help. And seriously, I miss you so much here =)

Haih..now then, I have already said what I don't feel to talk to anyone.. I shall go back to my real world to continue on what I should be and should do.. =)
because..I can do everything through Him who give me strength.

Lack of time

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~feel like want to shout out loud...

Carnival, you make me so gan zheong and stress ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

but, I think I gonna have an excited week and months...

I think so....

True Friend

I hope...I can be your true friend...

How can I overcome it??

I just so afraid...i will fall back...

and I really a kind of girl that lack of self-control, lack of discipline and lack of wisdom..

I'm so scare...

How can I overcome it???

Someone who worth for me

This is the Sister that I meet in my life that always care others beyond herself, love others beyond herself and even to give beyond what she can. And always know my heart so well.

I sincerely touch by your care and love for me. Being so good to me even when I scold you and argue with you and ignore your kindness for me. I'm sorry for all this.

But, today I really worry you. I wanted so much to help you and I don't know how to comfort you, how to give you what is suitable for you, because I'm so limited with my strength. The only things I can do for you is always pray for you.

I always believe God's care is far more betterr than mine. Therefore, whatever it come into your life that push you at the corner or being annoying with all the unhappy things, pls always remember God is there for you. Please be strong, sister.

I strongly believe that God is preparing something very precious and valuable for you. Just don't give up and give in. Whenever you need me, just tell me and I'll be there for you. And please always remember, you are not alone.

So, I hope one day you will able to see whatever you have give , whatever you preservere on, and your tears, God see it and it won't go vain. Just remember, God know everything about you.

Herewith some of the moment we have been through together. I pray and I hope we will always be together to love, to care and to support one another in truth and in love.

You know, I'm happy to have you around when I don't know how to talk to anyone.

In camp transformation MegaPaw Night

You always what I love even my favor ice-cream..

If you think you are still in sickness, pls let God heal you and fix you to become who you really mean for God.

=)

A life that is worth living

I have been very long didn't have any update here. However, this has been a long journey for me..i think..hahahaha..

You know, in youth camp and family camp also talking about LOVE..a love from God.. We have been talking so much about God's Love for us - a sinner.
LOVE....is my life...LOVE is the most important matter for me..I'm serious for it. But, throughout this long period of time, I begin to understand what is Love about.
I have this few things to share at here about Love.

Is not only what is Love about , but much more valuable if I can understand Why we Love and How we Love.

If ever the main ingredient for a pot of curry chicken is curry powder and chicken meat, then, the main ingredient for a Relationship is always honest, always trust and always accept.

Use things to love people, NOT use people to love things.

A life is only worth living if I know how to Love in a right way.

Sincerely I have make many prayer for each of you. I'm very thankful and grateful for God able to bring me to this level which is I able to experience His grace, His mercy and His love for a sinner - me.

This verse always come into my mind..
Romans 8:28 - And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

And I will keep praying for God to review His will for me in His beautiful timing.

And I'm very happy to have you who reading my blog now to be with me throughout this time.
Thank you for many care and love and little protection for me.
Thank you =)