October month

I don't want do big things just to make me look good or better.
I just want to do things that will please the Lord.

Reason why I said this because this month I do have so many things with me.
And I do have this sleepless night and stressful mind. With above statement, is to remind me of the very basic reason why I do so even with sleepless night.

But after yesterday outreach night, I do began to tasted the verse of Philippians 4:13.
I can do everything through Christ who give me strength. Such an encouragement for me.

Well well, beside on my services in church. My work also stressful but result not bad, because I able to hit my target for this month. Give thanks for it.

In family, mum still not happy about me over involved in food preparation and kitchen work. However, plan to have a great shopping with Mun when I get my money and my salary.

Personally, abit down to know that he will never return to me anymore.
Although is sad, but, gotto accept it. Haih..

I just want to do simple things for life, but, why can't I get the simple request that I want?



Even is sad, I will not put down my commitment to the Lord. Even so, I want to add on my value in Christ. So that next year de me will better that this year de me.

Keep calm and carry on.

Not a big deal

It was his birthday. Even after my birthday was thinking should I buy a gift for him or shouldn't?
Should I pretend don't know or just react whatever it come?
Should I recall those memory in last 2 years ago?

At the end, I didn't say my wish to him face to face due to no chance.
Unable SMS to him, because phone got problem.
Call him but didn't pick up call, may be busy or asleep already.
I did nothing for him. Because it not a big deal for me anymore.
Well, it simply mean, not so important anymore.

Therefore, the only thing I did is post a wish in facebook and commit him unto the Lord.

I realize, I'm happy for who I am now. I do really enjoy everything I have. Whether time, money, gift, work, and people.

If without this experience with you, I will not draw closer to God.
If without this experience with you, I will not be the one God want me to be, not the one you want me to be.

I'm grateful and thankful for what I have now, where I am now and who I am now.
And I do cherish who you really are in my life, my ex-bf .... hahahahaha X)

If you are reading my blog, Blessed Birthday to you. And I'm happy to know you grown stronger and closer to the Lord =)

it change you and me

Things will change when Love come in.

Love not only change your perspective, both parties relationship, also your attitude in handle life issue.
Most amazing part is, Love change you and me to be more Christlike, not look alike with Christ.

It change you and me

A word call Lonely

I discover few things from myself.

I have no one can be with me when I feel horrible lonely.

I don't feel like to meet anyone when I feel lonely.

I will try to fill in whatever it may be just to replace or kick away the feeling call lonely.

I will just simply lost focus whenever I feel lonely.

And lonely just make me being selfish by wanted so much people's care and to feel the value of important of someone.

The amazing part is, God like to put me to be alone and lonely so that I can just focus on Him.

Indeed, now I feel lonely and discourage for what I to do when people just don't know how to appreciate me. What I need is God and everyone. If I only need God, what for I do things for you, just do for God then enough loh? But God said, if you love me, you will also love your brother and by this all man will know that you are my disciple.

Haih.. I also can't understand what will the prophet do when they get rejected and no friend nobody want to listen their speak of the msg of God?

What will Jesus do when he face discourage?

I think..i need time to find and mediated on what does bible said about discouragement and how to handle it.. but, when I think until here, my mind already tired and...want to sleep..

我为我的脸感到很自卑...

It make me laugh

Yesterday, I have received an unknown number sms by asking me "sin huey, how are you?"

then, I only found out it was Annie Yong.

A long last member cum sister that encouraged me so much about a sincere heart.

And we continue chat on through sms each other.

Until a sms, she asked me this, "how is you and kayson phua?" @@

When I read this, and I laugh.. hahahahaha..
It so funny.

I didn't feel any sad or cry or anything bad. The feeling is just like...

oh well... we are friend now, izin't it?

Once, this kind of question can make me cry very badly.

But, now, it make me laugh.

=D

I think..is time to turn to a sunning day with beautiful rainbow. =)