Depending on God is not a weakness, but rather acknowledging His strength!

Depending on God is not a weakness, but rather acknowledging His strength!

This is a post from brother Dillion on facebook. When I read it, my tears drop again.

In my heart is saying,"How I hope I can learn up this in an easy way by n0t going through the painful lesson. This is what trouble me all the time. Even, affect me in worship the Lord."

Depending on God is not a weakness, but rather acknowledging His strength!

Do you all know how many unanswered question in me??

why must this way? why not that way?

why with me is a wrong decision from start till now?

why with her is not a wrong at all?

how to get rid from all this?

how to don't care for something that you care the most?

how to be "it doens't matter anymore" while the impact of rejected betrayed, and shame over all this time?

How to seek God when my eyes blinded?

How to trust again?

Why my friend get so happy and just like what they want, and me??

what do I have or earn from all this??

Why they still can happily dating out there??

If we all really care and love, why still have this kind of decision?

Why we all know we will have to give an account to God and still behave like such including myself?

How long I need to see the rubbish behave like wise?

How long I can stand like a normal people in church?

How long I need to persevere with pain and struggle?

And I do all this for what? Who am I to ask for a care or a love?

Am I getting stronger or I just make it worst??

I only know myself clear is..my heart is not willing..

I am not willing to depend on God. I am not willing depend on God's strength.

But, what dillion wrote...it just make me realize, I'm so stupid.. I'm so in hurt and somehow I lost my attention to let God help. I just hold it to myself.

My grace is sufficient for you.For my power is made perfect in weakness.

Whatever I can't do, God already do it for me. And I need to do is only let God do it for me. Let God in and I will find peace in Him. I hope and I pray, I will learn how to sincerely worship and praise the Lord with what I have and with what I don't have.

If you do really care, don't ask me anything but pray for me. with much love, thank you.

Depending on God is not a weakness, but rather acknowledging His strength!

2days 1night in Penang

In this Public Holiday of May, I didn't have my holiday at all..

But, having my Company Annual Dinner at Penang Estin Hotel.

This hotel, it just so nice, so comfortable and..luxury(from my standard)..

Well, herewith some picture for the room I stay just for a night..

my bed, table, tv..and bedroom was awesome...

hahahaha...

Then Annual dinner at night..

Opening speech by my GM..

really a short one..just within few minutes..i guess..

After that, I just keep on eat and eat and

watched for a lot boring and meaningless

show throughout the night..

Halfway, I wonder, what did my church people did at the Sunday morning..

well, just a thought..

My number for lucky draw sessions.

However, I'm not qualified in the lucky draw session

for reason working in this company less than a year.

So, what to do???

eat loh..

from 7.30pm on off eat until show end at 11pm..

just for fun I took this picture..

2 mini cheese tart with a caramel cream cake..

and my coffee to keep me warm..

After dinner, I bathed and sleep.

Next day, go to Prai for Company Sales training from 9am until 5pm..

Then, 6pm take bus went back to KL

and reach KL around 1145pm..

That's the end of my Penang trip in this May holiday.

However, I'm looking forward to visit once again

in June for Camp Transformation 2011.

Surely it will be extremely excited and memorable one.

And, I will spend 5days 4 night there.

烂透的人

至今, 心乃有不奋，乃有不甘..

和我一起,无论什么理由都是错的..

和她一起,所有理由都是头头是道..

因为母亲节而和妈妈聊了下,

我妈既然给予我警告说,"要是我还为两个烂到透的人伤心难过,

就再也不要去教会了."

我在教会已有八年,五年后我妈再度禁止我去教会

如果我再为失去的感情流泪..

对我而言,我很感动因为我妈很在乎我..

因为我妈说我,因为我很少笑容了..

在这之后,我也做了祷告..

泣求上帝来帮我脱离心中的苦..

也答应了妈妈不再为这些烂人掉泪..

因为我还想在这教会侍奉..直到上帝说停..

所以,你们也为我祷告吧!

用我的眼睛和心, 心甘情愿的跟随上帝..

把你们两位丢去垃圾桶..

不再去捡回来..

Save up some pls..

Often, I spend without saving..

Therefore, I bought this to motivate myself to save up at least some for myself..

You may think this is little.

Who knows sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi Bukit..

But oh, my mum scolded me when I told her I bought this for save up..

my mum said,"before you save up you already spend on this bottle.

Save your head meh?"

=.=

well, I still will save up some..

for further purpose

^^

Belated Birthday Celebration for Amy Pooi

Okay, after all the tired and long day on Ervonne's Wedding Day..

Let go out and have a simple makan celebration with

our best mummy between 5 of us..

(sound like celebrate mother's day more than her birthday O.o )

Anyway, she is a good mother in future.. ^^

We went to 1 Utama lah,

We ate Shogun lah,

We all have different makan look lah,

Just like below lah..

a sushi with a lot wasabi in his mouth..

Nicholas like to eat oyster de look

Amy's eating look..

Round Rou's prepare to eat de look...

after we eat until very full, then we spend about

4 hours just to chit chat and update with one another..

Then, we went to walk walk and I saw this decoration set up

very nice and it remind me of Jocelyn...

So, I took it for reference..

Nice or not???

Then, we all went to Daison lah...

At there, Rou Sang discover a very cute toy.

Therefore, we bought one for further purpose..

^^

hehe

Then, we came to this Pet Shop lah..

And we saw this leng lui puppy..

After...don't know how many hours walking,

we all feel thirsty and we proceed too the shop

call Little Taiwan..

Nicholas eat rice + drink,

Henri drink + play angry bird,

Amy eat ice kacang - the sago (bcx too sour)

Rou eat rice + eat ice - the sago (bcx too sour)

Me???

eat rice + watch henri play angry bird..

Then oh, after Nicholas make complaint to the shop worker,

then, we all get 15% discount from our bill..

and this complaint boleh pakai...

hahahaha..

just joking...pls don't take it... XO

After makan, we all went home lah...

That's the end of the celebration in spending time

with our best buddy...

And I'm happy with it..^^

Dinner with the Bride

The week before her (Yvonne) wedding...

We went for a great dinner...

herewith the Bride and the Bridesmaids..

The bride busy with her iPhone...

while Irene busy searching food for stomach..

Herewith another dinner with the Bride...

A huge pork ribs

super very nice oh...

my brown sauces pork spaghetti...

this one also very nice...

a lot "zhu you za"

And we tak tau mati, because just 2 days before her wedding

we went and eat all fat fat pork food..

By the way, we both satisfied with the food..

and we shall come back again for this shop call

Sanbato in PJ SS2..