the need of discipline through pain

I do experience so much about life in this 3 years.

How much is the cost to pay for all this experiences of all good and bad?

uncountable, I think..

Being very innocent in tasting life,

don't know what is life,

never consider the cost to pay,

not even bother the consequences,

and even worst is, I thought I'm handle rightly, but, I just failed it.

Until, I know what is pain, and even so,

discipline through pain that make me strong in the Lord.

So much tears that easily drop down by simply follow emotion.

At one point, I ask the Lord, pls take me home.

Pls take me home.
Life is so full of pain and heartache.
I don't want to face all this anymore,

I don't want all this anymore.

I struggle.

I cried.

And I prayed.

Again, I cried.

What had happened in my church, that make me even firm and sure that,

my presence in church is because of my commitment in serving

the Lord with all my heart, soul, mind and love.

Even so, I want to give my very best to keep the unity of my church.

Not to destroy, but to build it.

my base is Jesus Christ.

Also, I come to the Lord with a thankful heart in worship Him

with what I have and what I don't have.

Now then, I understand in Hebrew 11
how God see the need to discipline He love ones through pain.

God encourage me to run with perseverance (Hebrew 12:1)

God tell me to stay focus in His Son-Jesus (Hebrew 12:2)

so that I will not grow weary and lose heart (Hebrew 12:3)

For my God discipline those He loves (Hebrew 12:6)

Continue endure in hardship as discipline,

for God is treating me as His child (Hebrew 12:7)

And no discipline seems pleasant at that time, but painful. (Hebrew 12:11)

Life is much more easier if we just focus ourselves in the Lord.

I do appreciate for every single work from

God that is under His control

and in His right timing.

With this, what I need to persevere on

is just simple..

Stay focus in Jesus

with prayer and with an obedient heart

in follow His will.

May all this will be please unto you.