And Yet I Live

How many sleepless night I have been through???
How many worries dwell in me day and night???

How long for each of the prayer I keep for each of you???

How much I need to bear the consequences of others decision that affect me???

How can I take so many things with my ordinary strength and with the little wisdom that I have???
How to obey wholeheartedly to my Master when life seem so hard, hopeless and helpless to me??
Amazingly, I've been through all this and guess what, And Yet I Live.

How applicable to me in this year PYP theme.. And yet I live..

About few weeks back, I have caught in the middle to see those leaders that I respect the most, they stand up fighting, accusing, and shouting to one another. I feel very sad about it.
I can't even to stay until the conversation end. I don't have the courage to face the true war.

However, now then, after few weeks, I even firm my presence in Petra is not an accident.
My presence in Petra not because of Mr.Lian or Mr.Hing;

I come to Petra not because church got Steven Yam or the person I love the most;

I come to serve not because my commander ask me to do so.
No. It is because the One who call me to come, now, I'm here for Him-my Master Lord Jesus.

Though it sad, heart broken and discourage, but, through this incident, I even firm about my presence in Petra it is because none other than my God.

With this eye open incident, I begin to understand what is spiritual warfare about. Perhaps, I just begin to see a little bit only. But, it is very scary and horrible. Satan always come with his professional skill - destroy. Destroy the relationship between one another and break the unity and even change the love into hatred. And guess what, Satan happily doing so.

From that day onward, I keep remind myself about what Paul said about a soldier for spiritual battles. We need to equip ourselves with the very word of God. So that, we will not kill by satan and able to survive in the battle, And Yet I Live.

And so, I will do whatever I can in support my church and the ministry in benefit the youth and the church with my best.

Galatians 2 : 20-21
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.